Ummm…yeh.

June 30, 2008 · Filed under Tangents · Tagged , , , , ,

Okay so it’s 3:33 AM, I really should be sleeping. I was looking up cupcake recipes when all of a sudden I decided, I know…I’ll check my email! But there are always those stories on the side before I log in telling tantalizing tales of this and that. Tonight however something really caught my eye…it said “Critics Fear This Could Destroy Earth” Okay, how can you not be drawn to something like that. I kinda figured they would just go on about global warming and polar bears some like their usual stories. No, no. They meant impending doom this time. Caused by the Large Hadron Collider.

Bah. News Media is retarded. I mean really now they use the word “Doom” to describe what would happen after this thing is turned on in August. I’m so sure.

If you know anything about the Large Hadron Collider which I’m kinda guessing most people don’t. Which pisses me off actually. I mean this thing is huge, super huge, and it’s set to turn on in a month and this is the first the press is releasing anything on it. Seems weird to me. Well anyways, it’s this atom smashing machine-the most powerful one ever built-that’s some crazy number of feet below Switzerland and France. The whole purpose is to  try and find extra dimensions to prove string theory and discover dark matter by recreating what they think the seconds following the big bang were like.

Okay, issue! You’re doing what now??! I’m a very science oriented person. I love geology, paleontology, marine biology…okay so I’m completely bias on the matter because I’m a natural science person. But still…come on now. Trying to recreate the seconds after the big bang?! That doesn’t sound like it won’t have any reprocautions at all. . . O_O

 I mean I’m not a physicist and the people who actually are think it’s pretty safe. I think the quote was that the chances of it causing a global catastrophy were about the same as winning some lotteries. I really don’t think that this thing will destroy the planet though. That’s not my concern. I trust scientists to a pretty high degree it’s just….

They’ve kept this thing pretty quiet, nobody knows exactley what will happen, and really-
I think science might be going too far.

I think it’s already gone too far though…it almost seems like this is necessary now with all the progress we’ve made. I just appreciate our planet and I would hate to see us destroy it trying to figure out how it was made. I think some things are better left unanswered. We’ve got this beautiful planet and I never have understood why people can’t just appreciate it for what it is and what we know about it. Why don’t we spend more time focusing even more about what’s on the earth right now instead of how and why the earth is here in the first place? Because I’m guessing…just guessing…but I don’t think anyones ever going to find the answer to that one.

The Earth is big enough, why do we need to understand the universe too?

Bah, well anyways. what do I know, I’m just a 17 year old whose too focused on natural sciences, right?
Yeh.

Goodnight.

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June 28th, 2008

June 28, 2008 · Filed under Day to Day · Tagged , , , , ,

Sooo, I haven’t written in forever. You can’t blame me. My life is definitely nowhere near exciting enough to blog about every day. So lets cover the basics of my life right now and move on….

Nothing’s changed. I had my last shift at the aquarium until the fall, went to the overnight, pulled an all nighter with Gus, Mollee, and Emily and  then still managed to survive my cousins 5 hour graduation/after party the next day. Fell even more in love with cam than I already was. He’s in Chicago for another 2 weeks. I’m drawing insane amounts to pass the time. My camera’s dead so needless to say I’ve taken no pictures at all. I’ve hung out with Megan a ton. Today we filled her boyfriend’s car with balloons that we drew pictures on and named. We blew them all up too single handedly…well more like double handedly but same difference. and I’m just gonna put this out here… latex tastes nasty and in our 94 degree weather, it started to smell funky too. I now understand the reasoning behind flavored and scented condoms. Blech. I joined a soccer team and Megan and I go insane hours of the day, multiple times a day every day to get hours for our PE credit. We need like 150 hours by October. We’re approaching the half way point. Oh and my dad’s trying to teach me how to drive a stick shift so I can have his car. So far I’ve managed to kill the car like 120384 times. But I’ve been told practice makes perfect about that many times as well, so we’ll just see. I think summer should start picking up. It’s a little dreary so far.
And that’s what’s going on. Nothing exciting. I just thought I’d write some now.

A Long rant about Amber’s thoughts on: Being a Senior.
I don’t know exactley what to say though, I never do.
I seem to be worrying a lot lately which is stupid because well, it’s summer.
I don’t want to be a senior next year, not at all.
I don’t want to graduate this year, not in the least.
I get to do a senior project and apply for college and retake my SATs(because apparently 1650 is too “average”) and make my HS and beyond plan and quote unquote find myself and spend a ton of money on arbartrary seniory crap like t-shirts and yearbook photos and those stupid robes you only wear once.  
But the whole high school and beyond garbage especially…I mean honestly, who came up with that?
It sounds like something from a comic book or toystory or something.
To High School…..AND BEYOND!
But really, who knows what they want to do after high school anyways?
Sure you say you do but is that what you’re gonna end up doing?
I’m guessing probably not.
Because they have us plan plan plan plan plan but there’s just a tiny little thing that always seems to get in the way… 
It’s called life.
And I’m so sick of trying to plan out the details and what I’m doing and where I’m going.
It’s good to have an outline but that’s as far as you should ever have to go….
Because a few car wrecks there, a couple chance meetings there, some new friends, an interesting job proposition, an opportunity to travel the world, a tragic death, an unexpected visit and BAM!
Suddenly this straight line path to happiness you paved has taken an extremely left hand turn.
And I’m not ready to face the next year that feels like a big waste of time to me.
I’m not ready to tell everyone that I’m going to Evergreen.
Because everyone makes all these assumptions about people who go to Evergreen.
Everyone lumps people who go there as “Greeners” and forget that the stereotype they’re portraying is only one that fits about 1/4th of the campus’ population.
They have an amazing science program and it’s cheap and it fits my learning style perfectly.
So why should I have to go anywhere else if that’s where I want to go??
I want to be a paleontologist.
Or maybe an environmental scientist.
Possibly a marine biologist.
But then again I would so kill to work for Pixar.
I don’t know where my life is leading me, but I’m not ready to try and force it out.
That’s what senior year always seems about to me:
“Paving the way for your future!”
But my future hasn’t started yet and I’m not too concerned with it
It’ll come naturally and in due time…

Okay that’s enough for one night I suppose. Goodnight all.

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April 8th 2008

April 8, 2008 · Filed under Day to Day · Tagged , , , , , ,

Weee. So it’s spring break, I haven’t written in a very long time. but oh well nobody reads this anyways, so it’s all good. What to say, what to say?

Well lets start off with my new pills to help with my shit periods that last months at a time…
I just took one an hour and a half ago and yay feeling disgusting like I want to puke!! only not really.

But enough about that. Cam and Megan are on the eastcoast doing something fun, okay well not right now. right now they’re sleeping. But they saw Wicked on broadway tonight! I was jealous except I’ve already seen Wicked…so not really. But theres that whole “I’m in Olympia being hailed upon while you guys are dressed up watching a kick ass musical” thing. Haha, I really just miss them though.

 To pass the boredom while my best friend and boyfriend are away I watched Aladdin with my other best buddies bert and em. Aladdin is amazing, but the new DVD cut out all the fun parts of the old movie. Such as the part in the beginning where they talk about cutting out tongues, and the part where you can hear someone in the background is yelling that there’s good teenagers for sale, and that one part where if you listen to it closely someone is saying “take your clothes off.” All gone. Thanks to those stupid Youtube videos that bring those sorts of things to the spotlight. Seriously, heightened sensitivity for the political corectness of disney movies…40 year old men trying to dance as if they were cool…what’s next? Teenagers beating up other teenagers just for kicks? hahah…had to throw that in there but seriously now. Youtube is corrupting America! (as if it weren’t already…but that’s so beside the point). Hahaha…yehhh…Despite that though, Aladdin was still amazing. Of course we made the mistake of ruining it by trying to watch Mr. Woodcock afterwards, but it was so painful we had to turn it off.

Then Lets see…I went to Ocean Shores with Amia, Yeseul, Steven, and Tommy yesterday. We bought cheap safeway food and dollar kites from walmart. Except the cheap safeway food was from safeway…obviously. but just in case that needed clarification or something. We got attacked by seagulls and if you ask Kaila(Stevens love interest whom we were texting at the time), you’ll find out that Tommy didn’t make it out alive. He deserved what he got though…I mean that’s just what happens when you throw rice cakes at seagulls, they attack. Seriously, if somebody was throwing something that nasty at me…I’d attack them too. Our kites were the best! My kite had Nemo on it! Amia’s had diego on it so when she was trying to get it to fly I could ridiculously shout into the air “go diego! go!” It was the best thing ever. I don’t really remember what Tommy and Yeseul had on their kites but whatever it was, I didn’t care about obviously. But! Stupid steven wasn’t paying attention and got his dumb toystory kite tangled in mine and then in order to save his, he killed mine. So I’ll always remember that Toystory killed Finding Nemo, and mark my words…Nemo will have his revenge.

Oh and speaking of steven his sister called me while I was eating dinner tonight and said “Hi. so i just wanted to say that like I’m sorry if you don’t like me, because like… steven keeps saying how you don’t and I’m just like getting really sick of it, so like just okay, bye.” And then she hung up. She’s 13 and I don’t like her, but from that phone call it’s really not hard to see why.

So my life is really not all that fascinating at the moment. I have to practice my violin sometime soon, we’re playing the music man for the musical and the most I’ve managed to do this spring break is take it out, play the opening overature and then put it away again. And the overature is piece number 1 out of oh you know…46…in the entire musical. Great fun.

Tomorrow I think I’ll build my extra credit metal molecule for chemistry.
Sounds like fun right?
Yeh I know your jealous.

Wait one more thing!! I’m not volunteering at the aquarium this summer :’[ i'm pretty sad about it actually. But the hours they want are way too demanding for the summer. It is SUMMER for a reason. I'll reapply for next years school season, that should work for me. :]

Now I’m done. Have a picture of the attack seagulls. Yay!

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January 16th-February 16th 2008

February 16, 2008 · Filed under Day to Day · Tagged , , , ,

Haha wow. I haven’t written anything in forever and ever and ever.

Well I have, but not here.
 

So um I have no idea what’s happened between now and since I last wrote. Alot? Probably. Nothing major I guess.
I had a shift today! I’ve had several though. They’re pretty good. Today was like the kick off of octopus week though. It was packed and crazy and asldfkjasd. It hurt my head. And then I had a panic attack going home. Panic attack while driving…definitely not so good.

But that’s okay-I lived. And it was still fun. I love the aquarium and talking about marine life and being cool with my badge and hanging out with chill people, it’s good.

I don’t get to see cam this weekend due to his groundingness :[ It’s pretty depressing. I think I’m seeing a movie tonight with Kaila though…I’m not entirely sure how much I really want to see this movie but eh whatever. Something to do right?

So little children can be very not so cool when you have a big tube for them to crawl about in with a giant stuffed octopus at the other end of it. Really. I would not recommend trying to control them in that situation. It was pretty draining. Hm I really do love the aquarium though.

Valentines day was last week! Megan and I made cookies. haha and made these fun little book things of pictures of ourselves making them. And we treated the camerons’ to ice cream. It was a good time.

Lets see, I got a new phone today. It’s err shnazzy? except not really. It’s a texting phone so it’s got a keyboard and whatnot.

Yeh that’s not really exciting. Bert and I went to a bunch of folk music concerts. Okay, two? But whatever. two and a bunch are practically the same thing. Except not, oh I’m just digging a deeper hole aren’t I?

This is probably the most unexciting blog ever. I should post pictures shouldn’t I? I should. I should upload pictures to my computer. Yeh. That’s a good idea. I’ll do that. After I’m done here.

What else to say, what else to say. Yeh I’ve got nothing right now. I just figured I should blog in case readers were desperate for Amber’s boring life blog. Hah. Oooh I have something else I need to do. Dang it that’s not cool I can’t remember something. Oh well I’ll figure it out.

Okay yeh bye :D

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January 14th/January 15th 2008

January 15, 2008 · Filed under Day to Day · Tagged , , , ,

Wow, I have been exceedingly lazy in posting.
Well it’s not like anything that exciting has been happening anyways.

Let’s start with yesterday.
Yesterday was monday and a pretty typical one.
Couldn’t wake up, Got pissed off at my chemistry teacher, Tried to sleep in U.S. History…
Yeh that was about it.

Got to see cam after school due to Megan’s oboe lesson.
Mondays are good for that reason.
Except for on Megan’s count…since she has to endure the oboe lesson.
But good for me.
Emily was like molesting me because she was cold though.
That was the only downside.

The night wasn’t any more interesting. I went home and ate some tatertots.
And a chocolate peanut butter banana milkshake.
Which, I might add, is the best shake humanly possible.

Then I went to bed at like 2? Something like that.
No idea how I got myself out of bed in time enough to scrape the ice off my car.
I ran out of spray deicer :[
I should go buy some more of that. That will be on tomorrows agenda.
Along with remembering to take pictures.
Hah…like that’ll happen though…but you never know.

Oh! I up and decided to audition for the schools winter production of The Crucible.
It had been much too long since I went to any auditions.
It was pretty fun.
I miss acting.

I have a pretty major headache tonight and it’s lame.
But tomorrow is wednesday–which means late start!
So yay for that.

That’s really all I’ve got to say. Mondays and Tuesdays are always pretty boring.

The end.

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January 12th/January 13th 2008

January 13, 2008 · Filed under Day to Day · Tagged , ,

Okay so I didn’t blog yesterday, I’m a terrible person. So says Megan.
And accordingly so.

Yesterday was well…full of U.S. History and bsing  my knowledge of civil war propoganda.
I made a poster about it yet, I know nothing about my poster at all.
It’ll be a fun presentation. The teachers old.
He won’t know the difference.

That was pretty much all I did.
Then I hung out with Cam.
Slash Megan who was with us.

We watched part of the titanic–
All the good parts too.
The deck scene, the sketch scene, and the car scene.
Oooh yeh.
:]

Lets see then today I got up at some insane hour of the morning to trek to Seattle.
I’ll make a post about my shift at the aquarium today. But that needs its own post for sure.

Oh and a bit of Seattle insanity-Cow Chip Cookies in Pioneer Square…was closed today!
I wanted to cry pretty much. One of those things sounded soo good today.
Alas next time I’m in Seattle…
One will be mine.

I should have bought Cam and Bets gift today-I had so much downtime when I got home.
But I didn’t because I decided to change out my turn signal lights on my car.
Which required a trip to Shucks.
That place smells soo amazing.
Mmm tires and rubber piping.

I had a very cheesy sandwhich for dinner tonight.
Too cheesy to eat in fact.

Hm that reminds me that I’m thirsty.
Off I go.

P.S. I’m working on the picture posting thing…But I’m still needing to take pictures. I just forget. Sooon though for sure.

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January 11th 2008

January 13, 2008 · Filed under Day to Day · Tagged , , , , ,

I found my camera! I searched everywhere for it and then it turned up randomly right in front of my face. That is so typical of me…now if only that would happen with my glasses…I’d be in good shape.

I want to catch up on sleep but tomorrow I will definitely post some pictures. Of course the only pictures I have so far are of Cam’s helmet which he left here tonight. We watched National Lampoons’ Christmas or something to that effect…it was you know…a Chevy Chase movie. I don’t know that I really need to say much more about the matter. But hanging out with Cam of course is always fun.

I have a U.S. History project to do tomorrow. I’m very excited. Except not.

Oh! I had to by tampons today really desperately. Great, right? Yeh well I hate just buying tampons because it’s weird. So I bought bagels, soda, cookie dough, and some other random crap too. That’s really not the point of the story the point of the story is reall: So when I went to buy the stuff I had the weird guy at the counter flirting with me. He was like “I saw you checking out my line before you got in it.” I was like “Uhhh well it was the shortest.” He was like “No, you were just drawn to me.” I informed him that I was actually in a hurry and I was drawn to the lines length. He informed me that he thought I was lying. I stopped trying to argue and just nodded and payed him money while he jabbered on about how much he doesn’t like his job and how he tries to avoid people coming to his line by not making eye contact…of course he had to tell me that he made eye contact with me though…and by this point I was just like “Okay thank you!” Then I left…as quickly as I could.

Yeh let’s see…I think that was the extent of my happenings for the day.
Cam and I ate like half a thing of raw cookie dough stuff though.
I hope we don’t get sick.
It was totally worth it though if we do.

Okay I’m gonna go write some stuff elsewhere..maybe I’ll post some of it on here if it’s any good.

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January 10th 2008

January 11, 2008 · Filed under Day to Day

It’s ten days into the new years already. Today was the most uneventful day yet!

I don’t have anything to say about my day. It felt like it was never going to end, seriously.
I found a new band though–The Classic Crime.
They’re Seattle based… and they’re not too bad.
They have a song titled “Seattle,” which I enjoy.

And since I don’t know what else to write I’ll just say that Cam made a helmet today.
With funny stuff on it. Yup.

Oh hmmm maybe I’ll just post some actual good writing in a bit. That would be more interesting I bet. And once I find my camera tonight I’ll start getting pictures on flickr and up here. Serious this time.

Tomorrow’s friday!

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January 9th 2008

January 10, 2008 · Filed under Day to Day · Tagged , ,

Happy January 9th 2008.

Wednesdays are always good days. Uneventful really. I went with michele to get bubble tea and sweet and sour chicken tonight. Deliciously amazing, naturally.
Now I’m kind of just sitting around listening to Ben Folds.

I have this way of putting places with people and Cam got another place today.
Today he reminded me of Seaside.
He’s reminded me of other places before but today he was definitely seaside.
I also gave my friend tyler a place for the first time today.
He got Cony Island.
Putting places to people probably sounds completely absurd to everyone else…but it’s one of those things for me. I just do it automatically over time with people. They start to remind me of places I’ve been and things I’ve seen and I don’t know why. They just do.

I really want another late start tomorrow. Ah well, wishful thinking I suppose.

Oh and my new resolution is to start carrying around my camera so I can get pictures on this blog thing of mine. Pictures  just make everything so much more interesting. So I’ll get on that soon.

I’m gonna go find ice cream now.

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Hope

January 10, 2008 · Filed under Old Writing · Tagged , , ,

I wrote this for a class I hated. Therfor I can’t fully appreciate it. But at the same time, I still think it’s well crafted.

Today I watched more life slip away.
Deafening, was the silence;
that filled the absence it made.

And though I knew it was wrong,
I was relieved.
That absence was not me.

My life should not be this illuminated.
Not with so much gray.
But it is.

I place my life in the future,
when the gray will no longer consume.
That is the only tomorrow for me.

And every night before I sleep,
I feed myself obscurities with a spoon
to keep myself shielded from the sharp points of reality.

Then I turn on the light
that warms my core
as the cold eats away at the remains of my human image.

The light fills me with music.
The light fills me with innocence.
This light is the heart of all humanity.And as I close my eyes to sleep,
clutching the light to my chest,
I hold in my hands what I hold in my dreams:
Hope.

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