January 15, 2008
· Filed under Day to Day · Tagged Audition, Deicer, Lazy, Monday, Tuesday
Wow, I have been exceedingly lazy in posting.
Well it’s not like anything that exciting has been happening anyways.
Let’s start with yesterday.
Yesterday was monday and a pretty typical one.
Couldn’t wake up, Got pissed off at my chemistry teacher, Tried to sleep in U.S. History…
Yeh that was about it.
Got to see cam after school due to Megan’s oboe lesson.
Mondays are good for that reason.
Except for on Megan’s count…since she has to endure the oboe lesson.
But good for me.
Emily was like molesting me because she was cold though.
That was the only downside.
The night wasn’t any more interesting. I went home and ate some tatertots.
And a chocolate peanut butter banana milkshake.
Which, I might add, is the best shake humanly possible.
Then I went to bed at like 2? Something like that.
No idea how I got myself out of bed in time enough to scrape the ice off my car.
I ran out of spray deicer :[
I should go buy some more of that. That will be on tomorrows agenda.
Along with remembering to take pictures.
Hah…like that’ll happen though…but you never know.
Oh! I up and decided to audition for the schools winter production of The Crucible.
It had been much too long since I went to any auditions.
It was pretty fun.
I miss acting.
I have a pretty major headache tonight and it’s lame.
But tomorrow is wednesday–which means late start!
So yay for that.
That’s really all I’ve got to say. Mondays and Tuesdays are always pretty boring.
The end.
January 13, 2008
· Filed under Day to Day · Tagged forgetful, stuff, yehhh
Okay so I didn’t blog yesterday, I’m a terrible person. So says Megan.
And accordingly so.
Yesterday was well…full of U.S. History and bsing my knowledge of civil war propoganda.
I made a poster about it yet, I know nothing about my poster at all.
It’ll be a fun presentation. The teachers old.
He won’t know the difference.
That was pretty much all I did.
Then I hung out with Cam.
Slash Megan who was with us.
We watched part of the titanic–
All the good parts too.
The deck scene, the sketch scene, and the car scene.
Oooh yeh.
:]
Lets see then today I got up at some insane hour of the morning to trek to Seattle.
I’ll make a post about my shift at the aquarium today. But that needs its own post for sure.
Oh and a bit of Seattle insanity-Cow Chip Cookies in Pioneer Square…was closed today!
I wanted to cry pretty much. One of those things sounded soo good today.
Alas next time I’m in Seattle…
One will be mine.
I should have bought Cam and Bets gift today-I had so much downtime when I got home.
But I didn’t because I decided to change out my turn signal lights on my car.
Which required a trip to Shucks.
That place smells soo amazing.
Mmm tires and rubber piping.
I had a very cheesy sandwhich for dinner tonight.
Too cheesy to eat in fact.
Hm that reminds me that I’m thirsty.
Off I go.
P.S. I’m working on the picture posting thing…But I’m still needing to take pictures. I just forget. Sooon though for sure.
January 13, 2008
· Filed under Day to Day · Tagged Camera, Cookie dough, Creeper, Friday, Life, Shopping
I found my camera! I searched everywhere for it and then it turned up randomly right in front of my face. That is so typical of me…now if only that would happen with my glasses…I’d be in good shape.
I want to catch up on sleep but tomorrow I will definitely post some pictures. Of course the only pictures I have so far are of Cam’s helmet which he left here tonight. We watched National Lampoons’ Christmas or something to that effect…it was you know…a Chevy Chase movie. I don’t know that I really need to say much more about the matter. But hanging out with Cam of course is always fun.
I have a U.S. History project to do tomorrow. I’m very excited. Except not.
Oh! I had to by tampons today really desperately. Great, right? Yeh well I hate just buying tampons because it’s weird. So I bought bagels, soda, cookie dough, and some other random crap too. That’s really not the point of the story the point of the story is reall: So when I went to buy the stuff I had the weird guy at the counter flirting with me. He was like “I saw you checking out my line before you got in it.” I was like “Uhhh well it was the shortest.” He was like “No, you were just drawn to me.” I informed him that I was actually in a hurry and I was drawn to the lines length. He informed me that he thought I was lying. I stopped trying to argue and just nodded and payed him money while he jabbered on about how much he doesn’t like his job and how he tries to avoid people coming to his line by not making eye contact…of course he had to tell me that he made eye contact with me though…and by this point I was just like “Okay thank you!” Then I left…as quickly as I could.
Yeh let’s see…I think that was the extent of my happenings for the day.
Cam and I ate like half a thing of raw cookie dough stuff though.
I hope we don’t get sick.
It was totally worth it though if we do.
Okay I’m gonna go write some stuff elsewhere..maybe I’ll post some of it on here if it’s any good.
January 11, 2008
· Filed under Day to Day
It’s ten days into the new years already. Today was the most uneventful day yet!
I don’t have anything to say about my day. It felt like it was never going to end, seriously.
I found a new band though–The Classic Crime.
They’re Seattle based… and they’re not too bad.
They have a song titled “Seattle,” which I enjoy.
And since I don’t know what else to write I’ll just say that Cam made a helmet today.
With funny stuff on it. Yup.
Oh hmmm maybe I’ll just post some actual good writing in a bit. That would be more interesting I bet. And once I find my camera tonight I’ll start getting pictures on flickr and up here. Serious this time.
Tomorrow’s friday!
January 10, 2008
· Filed under Day to Day · Tagged Places, Seaside, Wednesday
Happy January 9th 2008.
Wednesdays are always good days. Uneventful really. I went with michele to get bubble tea and sweet and sour chicken tonight. Deliciously amazing, naturally.
Now I’m kind of just sitting around listening to Ben Folds.
I have this way of putting places with people and Cam got another place today.
Today he reminded me of Seaside.
He’s reminded me of other places before but today he was definitely seaside.
I also gave my friend tyler a place for the first time today.
He got Cony Island.
Putting places to people probably sounds completely absurd to everyone else…but it’s one of those things for me. I just do it automatically over time with people. They start to remind me of places I’ve been and things I’ve seen and I don’t know why. They just do.
I really want another late start tomorrow. Ah well, wishful thinking I suppose.
Oh and my new resolution is to start carrying around my camera so I can get pictures on this blog thing of mine. Pictures just make everything so much more interesting. So I’ll get on that soon.
I’m gonna go find ice cream now.
January 10, 2008
· Filed under Old Writing · Tagged The Pianist, Life is Beautiful, Poetry, English
I wrote this for a class I hated. Therfor I can’t fully appreciate it. But at the same time, I still think it’s well crafted.
Today I watched more life slip away.
Deafening, was the silence;
that filled the absence it made.
And though I knew it was wrong,
I was relieved.
That absence was not me.
My life should not be this illuminated.
Not with so much gray.
But it is.
I place my life in the future,
when the gray will no longer consume.
That is the only tomorrow for me.
And every night before I sleep,
I feed myself obscurities with a spoon
to keep myself shielded from the sharp points of reality.
Then I turn on the light
that warms my core
as the cold eats away at the remains of my human image.
The light fills me with music.
The light fills me with innocence.
This light is the heart of all humanity.And as I close my eyes to sleep,
clutching the light to my chest,
I hold in my hands what I hold in my dreams:
Hope.
January 10, 2008
· Filed under Old Writing · Tagged Marshmallows, Socks
I keep a bag of marshmallows in my sock drawer.
Everytime somebody needs to borrow some socks they find the marshmallows.
Their first question is always “Why do you have marshmallows in your sock drawer?”
Their second question is, usually, something along the lines of “Do you mind if I have one?”
I’ve yet to figure out what possesses people to take a marshmallow from somebody who keeps them in her sock drawer.
I’ve also yet to figure out why people need to borrow socks from me in the first place.
Maybe the people I know just happen to really enjoy other peoples socks .
Maybe the people I know just happen really enjoy marshmallows.
But I keep them in my sock drawer for you.
Marshmallows are sugar. Pure sugar. Pure white. Pure goodness.
Socks are cotton. Pure cotton. Pure white. Pure goodness.
Steal my socks and steal my marshmallows, you probably need them more than I do.
[P.S. I really do keep marshmallows in my sock drawer. Marshmallows kick so much ass]
January 10, 2008
· Filed under Old Writing · Tagged Writing, Life
Despite the fact that I don’t know where here is, I know one thing:
I don’t belong here.
Not because I’m different though. I’m probably the most undifferent person you’ll ever meet.
I’m intensely average at almost everything. Possibly below average at a few things as well.
But I feel worn out by the tedious tendancies connections always seem to take.
Not that I don’t need connections.
I just feel my connection doesn’t lie within the realm of human existence.
I’m not connected to us.
I don’t like us.
We’re too strange of beings.
I connect with other things around us though, the earth and other animals.
If I take humans out of our known context, and view us as animals, I can connect with us too.
But it’s usually so superficial because the connection always seems to relate to some sort of vanity.
Things so trivial to our existance that I feel disheartened, almost pity, for our kind.
I’ve just come to find that there is hardly any substance to our minds.
Or better, there is more substance than we know what to do with.
I watch this obsessive pride take over mankind.
Like we deserve so much more than the rest.
Why? Where did that fucking mentality come from in the first place?
Our complexes are too complex. It’s too hard for us to attach to anybody…or anything.
On a purely emotional level at least.
Because our emotions are completely obscured by what we’ve been taught to think.
All the words they put in our heads. Words. God I hate them.
Don’t get me wrong, I talk a mile a minute, I know.
But when I talk I convey nothing of what actually goes on inside of me.
That can’t be felt through words. Words are too superficial.
Feeling things by other means is the only way possible for me, crazy as it seems.
So here’s me, staring into the eyes of some fish and feeling every emotion on the spectrum.
Like this little fish understands me, like he knows exactley what’s in my head. Like I know exactley what’s in his.
I feel intrusive like I don’t belong here, but I can’t look away because he’s feeling the same thing.
And so we just stare at each other for awhile entraced by the serenity of another’s thoughts.
Until we finally look away.
Then life continues like nothing happened at all.
But it’s so strange because you’ve just glimpsed another creatures most personal being.
Bonding yourself for eternity with another’s soul, or whatever you want to define an infinite spirit as.
It’s so intense, like a great wave crashing down. Sweeping away your empty, hollow, self and replacing it with a sense of purpose.
I crave this connection at all times. I must have it. It’s what ties me to all living things around me.
But I don’t feel like I can have it here, wherever here is.
It’s too narrow. It’s too similair. It’s too transparent.
After I find here I’m gonna find there and that’s where it all becomes clear.
I’m connected somewhere to something; many things, all at once.
And all I can do is feel them, seeing is out of the question.
I’ve never been of the extreme religious nature however…
There’s some evident truth in not always having to see everything in order to believe it.
January 10, 2008
· Filed under Old Writing
So I write a lot…probably more than I should.
I keep it all in various places: On the computer, on myspace, in journals, on my homework…I find things that I’ve written everywhere. I want to start posting some of it on here. I think that most of it’s more fascinating than my boring days.
Not that I’ll quit writing daily blogs about my life-because I will.
But I think that’s more for me than it is for anybody else.
So I’m just gonna dump a bunch of stuff I previously wrote into different blogs tonight.
And that’s the story behind the beginning of this category.
I’ll post new writings on here too eventually
But until then it’ll just be stuff I’ve written in the past couple months.
Yup. And that’s The End of The Beginning.
January 9, 2008
· Filed under Day to Day · Tagged Accomplishments, Sleepy, Tuesday
I’m wayyy tired. Seriously, my eyes can hardly stay open.
Worst of all it’s only 10:28.
There was a two hour delay due to snow this morning so I even got to sleep extra…meh well what can I say? My body is just crazy.
I had a lot of firsts today.
I drove in the snow which actually isn’t bad-it’s easy compared to driving in ice.
I ate two entire safeway bagels with a little help from cam and clare.
I used my debit card to buy gas–without the transaction failing three times first.
I managed to interpret a poem outloud while eating poprocks in snods class.
Major accomplishments right there…they were pretty extreme.
Late start wednesday! Yes!
I swear I’ll start posting more interesting posts that are more than just about my boring day to day life. But until then.
Goodnight World.
