Sooo, I haven’t written in forever. You can’t blame me. My life is definitely nowhere near exciting enough to blog about every day. So lets cover the basics of my life right now and move on….
Nothing’s changed. I had my last shift at the aquarium until the fall, went to the overnight, pulled an all nighter with Gus, Mollee, and Emily and then still managed to survive my cousins 5 hour graduation/after party the next day. Fell even more in love with cam than I already was. He’s in Chicago for another 2 weeks. I’m drawing insane amounts to pass the time. My camera’s dead so needless to say I’ve taken no pictures at all. I’ve hung out with Megan a ton. Today we filled her boyfriend’s car with balloons that we drew pictures on and named. We blew them all up too single handedly…well more like double handedly but same difference. and I’m just gonna put this out here… latex tastes nasty and in our 94 degree weather, it started to smell funky too. I now understand the reasoning behind flavored and scented condoms. Blech. I joined a soccer team and Megan and I go insane hours of the day, multiple times a day every day to get hours for our PE credit. We need like 150 hours by October. We’re approaching the half way point. Oh and my dad’s trying to teach me how to drive a stick shift so I can have his car. So far I’ve managed to kill the car like 120384 times. But I’ve been told practice makes perfect about that many times as well, so we’ll just see. I think summer should start picking up. It’s a little dreary so far.
And that’s what’s going on. Nothing exciting. I just thought I’d write some now.
A Long rant about Amber’s thoughts on: Being a Senior.
I don’t know exactley what to say though, I never do.
I seem to be worrying a lot lately which is stupid because well, it’s summer.
I don’t want to be a senior next year, not at all.
I don’t want to graduate this year, not in the least.
I get to do a senior project and apply for college and retake my SATs(because apparently 1650 is too “average”) and make my HS and beyond plan and quote unquote find myself and spend a ton of money on arbartrary seniory crap like t-shirts and yearbook photos and those stupid robes you only wear once.
But the whole high school and beyond garbage especially…I mean honestly, who came up with that?
It sounds like something from a comic book or toystory or something.
To High School…..AND BEYOND!
But really, who knows what they want to do after high school anyways?
Sure you say you do but is that what you’re gonna end up doing?
I’m guessing probably not.
Because they have us plan plan plan plan plan but there’s just a tiny little thing that always seems to get in the way…
It’s called life.
And I’m so sick of trying to plan out the details and what I’m doing and where I’m going.
It’s good to have an outline but that’s as far as you should ever have to go….
Because a few car wrecks there, a couple chance meetings there, some new friends, an interesting job proposition, an opportunity to travel the world, a tragic death, an unexpected visit and BAM!
Suddenly this straight line path to happiness you paved has taken an extremely left hand turn.
And I’m not ready to face the next year that feels like a big waste of time to me.
I’m not ready to tell everyone that I’m going to Evergreen.
Because everyone makes all these assumptions about people who go to Evergreen.
Everyone lumps people who go there as “Greeners” and forget that the stereotype they’re portraying is only one that fits about 1/4th of the campus’ population.
They have an amazing science program and it’s cheap and it fits my learning style perfectly.
So why should I have to go anywhere else if that’s where I want to go??
I want to be a paleontologist.
Or maybe an environmental scientist.
Possibly a marine biologist.
But then again I would so kill to work for Pixar.
I don’t know where my life is leading me, but I’m not ready to try and force it out.
That’s what senior year always seems about to me:
“Paving the way for your future!”
But my future hasn’t started yet and I’m not too concerned with it
It’ll come naturally and in due time…
Okay that’s enough for one night I suppose. Goodnight all.
